God's Grand Gifts and Grace.

Extremes – Intense

We are feeling all the feels around here.  We have just been blessed with the most amazing

 GRAND

set of twins. 

 We could not be happier and so very thankful for the timing of our move so that we can be a part of these precious lives from day 1. 

 For some crazy reason when I feel overwhelmed by the goodness of God, it can throw me clear to the other extreme and throw me into this weird cycle of fear.  I want to clench my hands and heart and hang on with everything I've got.  It’s like being scared it’s all too good to be true, or knowing that such sweet times are only part of the story and so instead of being present and enjoying the moment, I often slip into the

 “what if”

mindset..

What if we had missed this? What if we mess up?

What if things fall apart?

To live in the “what if” is not to live in the present or the grace of today.

I have been listening to a series on a podcast from Grace Gate and it has truly been a game changer and life saver for me in this intense time.   

I have all these feelings and it feels so intense and extreme and it makes me think I’m a little on the crazy side. 

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We have had so many changes and such highs and lows with this move.

We are so happy happy happy about being near family (yay).

We are so sad that Charlie hasn’t got to come yet (boo).

We are happy to be doing new things and meeting new people (yay).

We are missing our friends and our place in Oregon (boo).

We are loving the conveniences of city living (yay).

We are hating living in town (boo).

We are enjoying our new church with all the bells and whistles (yay).

We are missing our sweet and intimate fellowship in Oregon (boo).

The list is endless……..

The biggest high is that God put me just 2 miles away from my new twin GRANDS.  I get to pop in and out without interrupting the flow of their family bonding that is going on so beautifully.

I have noticed that Lashae is a complete rock-star at handling her new little bundles, but sometimes she just needs a few extra hands.  I pray she gets double the oxytocin because it is survival at this point.  I, on the other hand, have oxy-nothing.  I told my hubby I may need some oxy intervention at some point, and so he took that request and warning, and they prayed at prayer meeting that I would have the strength of an ox.

 That seems to be working! 

I have a hard time explaining to people that ask…..

Why did you move? 

 In our culture, it is important to put finances and kids and sports and work and education as your reason for everything…we moved because we felt God led us this way.

 Here are a few of the benefits and confirmations of God's gracious leading and the good good gifts He gives.

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