Uganda!! Part 2
This is the part that is way LESS fun to experience or read about. After having a day of excitement and praises of thanksgiving about our upcoming trip to Uganda, the old familiar FEARS set in within hours.
I went to bed on high and in the night woke up with FEAR on my brain.
finances...sickness....(those are just a few to give you an idea)
I should know better than to entertain FEAR, because I know this is NOT from the Lord. But, I laid there and did just that, and entertained it, (for several hours) until I finally drug my fanny out of bed and opened up God's Word and the verse that I immediately landed on was:
I was once again at PEACE.
I should know better, and the minute I feel fear sneak in, battle it with God's Word.
For me, even praying as I lay in bed doesn't always work, because my mind wanders.
I need God's Word and His truth, so I can even pray.
I was telling my sister about this and she asked what my fears were....and I just went through the short-list...she could totally relate and yet reminded me where fear comes from.
I wish I could say this completely took all my fears away, but it didn't. It is a minute by minute thing with me. I have to stay so saturated in the Word and Worship music and prayer right now to just keep the peace and stay on track.
I can tell you what I know without a doubt is this:
I fear God more than all the other fears that I could list.
(and I could give you quite a list)
I don't fear that God will not love me, or that He will disown me if I don't go.
I fear that I will miss out on something that He has for me and our family.
I have prayed with such sincerity that our family as individuals and as a family would live for God and that He would allow us to be a part of something He is doing and He is answering.
I don't want to miss out!