I'm Ready!

Well, I'm officially ready.
 I have diapers and binkys and now I know baby can make her appearance at any time, and I am as ready as I need to be.

We have had a lot going on in the last month since we got home from Uganda.
 It's not that 
I
am so busy
but all my people are.

Mik, Esther, and Luke have had basketball on a team where they all 3 get to play on the same team.

 Luke has also had wrestling and Esther has had volleyball.

I have been a bit of a hermit.

I was wondering the other day.....what my problem seems to be....I am peaceful and plenty rested and I feel fine...

( I mean, as fine as a pregnant Nay Nay can feel)

 but I just don't  feel up to "engaging" much outside of these 4 walls...or however many walls are in this house.  

And then it hit me....
I have a graduating Senior, which is awesome, 

AND

 a baby on the way, which is also awesome,
 and everything in between.

 I know when my older kids graduated, it took a lot of adjustment, in my thought process.  It also took extra time and energy to let the Senior process thoughts and ideas about all the upcoming changes and decisions of their future.

Whenever you have a person a comin' or a goin', 
it causes everyone to ADJUST to a new norm.

My current Senior has been my wife right hand for so many years and I can feel her gearing up to take flight.

Even if they don't leave the nest for awhile or leave and come back for a season, it is not the same, they are in a different role in the house and family once they have graduated.

  My Senior is being a Senior
(anyone who has had one, knows that the plans of life change every 30 minutes days.)

 I know that this process is normal and totally necessary, but I just jump on one train and it's already off those rails and headed on a whole different track. 

 I.am.in.no.condition.to.be.doing.ANY.sort.of.jumping.

I remember when Lashae and Chaney were getting married and I was 8 months pregnant with Moo, I had the same feeling.  I didn't have a lot to offer outside of the immediate family at the time.  It was as if, all my body and emotions were so busy trying to do and process what needed to be done and still enjoy the moment...that everything else went on the back burner. 

 When the kids get home from school, they (mostly Mik, poor kid hasn't learned yet) will often ask me what did I do all day?? 

**I mean to him, it is a legit question, because it appears nothing is different from when he left the house 7 hours earlier.**

And my new answer is:

I grew a baby!!! 
I mean seriously, isn't that enough for right now.  

By the grace of God alone, it's been very quiet around here, and honestly I'm not that busy, I spend a lot of "down time," and I don't even feel too bad about it
because I know all too well what is coming and I know the "down time" thing will soon be 

O.V.E.R. 

I have to say, now that I'm on the tail end of this pregnancy, in hindsight, it has gone by super fast and uneventfully.
It has been one of the hardest things for me, and also one of the biggest and best blessings of my life.